hmmm... June 7, 2006.
How time flies. If u noticed, I haven't been posting 4 quite a bit now. I think someone did notice. Well... I have been busy with work (... some of the time). The thing is, I think I'm beginning to take twice the time to do some things compared to when I was younger... Yes! I acknowledge I am "ageing". The part about ageing is that, you begin to come to terms it is inevitable, irreversible and there's nothing you can do about it. So just sit back, relax and watch yourself rot day by day...
Well... I have been planning for the past few days to get my life straight... erm actually, I have been doing that for the past few weeks. Honestly, I have been trying for the past few years. The truth is, I have been trying all my life. That's just me... human; always trying to be better but always getting nowhere near.
The heart is still pumping; the blood is still running; we are still breathing and thinking (... obviously!). And sometimes we do lose sight of what we want and what business we still have being a part of this enormous over-populated so-called "humane" race. Sometimes, it's the temptation of wanting "sugar and spice and everything nice" for ourselves. Sometimes, it's just us being lazy and wanting an easy way out for everything. Very typical; though I doubt even you can say that you don't feel that way (if somehow, by some weird coincidence you did liberate yourself from these sins, maybe you could show me a thing or two... but I doubt it). As I was saying, there's just so many distractions nowadays... before you know it, BOOM!... you're lost in the middle of nowhere and you're back to "still trying to figure out where you are going".
After all is said and done, I think I make sense, don't I? Well believe me... I'm still CLUELESS as to what I was trying to get at... but thank you for bearing with me anyway!